What I think Edward was trying to do to not be jelaous.
After Jacob arrived to Bella's party he gave her a bracelet with a wooden-carved werewolf. After Jacob's pack heard about Victoria they wanted to help but Bella wasn't too exited about this idea, she was already putting at risk the Cullens. Jasper accepted to teach the werewolves and his family how to fight agaisnt the newborns. Days went by and the day of the practice arrived. After the practice finalized they all were strugging because they didn't knwe where to hide Bella while they fought with Victoria's army. After some arguments they all acceptd the idea of hiding Bella in the mountains. After a few days Bella stayed at Edward's house because the res of them went hiking. In there they talked about they're conditions and Edward proposed to her! Finally the day arrived and it was time for Jacob to bring Bella to the mountains. At night it was freezing cold so Jacob slept next to Bella to warm her....Edward was jealous.
Some Secrets...
"Three bad things have happened since you came back."
In my opinion I think that Bella may have been having her regrets. I mean she loves Edward with her heart ans soul but like she said everything bad happens when Edward is with Bella. Maybe this is some kind of sign that tells Edward and bella that the best should be if they just break up. I just hope that everything turns out just right because I think they make a great couple.
"'Okay, look Edward,'I whispered. 'Here's the thing... I;ve already gone crazy once. I know what my limits are. And I can't stand it if you leave me again.'"
I think that Bella is more focused in this relationship than Edward because he did leave her and didn't even called to know if she was even alive. Although Edward proposed to her so that makes it confusing.
Final Thoughts
I liked this few pages because I got to know the real personalities of the characters. I realized that some of them are very jelous and don't know how to be sutil about it. I'm reaching the end of th book and I really am looking forward to read it. I hope it ends with a happy ending and that bella and Edward do get married someday.
My reaction when I read the part in which Jacob kissed Bella
Alice is having a graduation party but Bella is not comfortable with that idea. Edward and Bella are arguing a lot because he thinks she isn´t ready to be a vampire yet, and also he thinks it would be selfish to turn Bella just for he fact that she can stay with him for eternity. Bella finally confessed why she doesn´t want to get marry at 18 but she knows that marriage is Edward´s condition of transforming her himself. Moving on, Jasper told his story to Bella and Bella realized there is an army of newborns because she remembered that Laurent visited her days before, and that is when they all remembered that Laurent was living with their cousins in Dali. After Jasper agreed to help them defeat the newborns, Bella visited Jacob and invited him to the graduation party. After a long talk he confessed his feelings for Bella, then he kissed her and she broke her hand trying to punch him. Days passed and Bella graduated at last, they all went to the party, Bella thought she had uninvited Jacob to the party until he showed up.
Some Secrets...
"He shook his head slowly. ´For me to allow this- to let you become what I am just so that I´ll never have to lose you- is the most selfish act I can imagine´"(273)
When I read this but remembered what Edward did.
Edward do have feelings! After all he have done he doesn´t want to make Bella´s dream come true, which is to stay with him all eternity. OK, he might be right in the fact hat she might have regrets but they are meant to be together and that should be enough for him. I do think it is sweet that Edward wants to be with her forever and don´t want to loose her....again....
"We will take care of the problem, And I will take care of you"(271)
Now i´m convinces that Edward truly loves Bella, Even if he did bad stuff in the fast he at least tried to fix it..Even though, Edward wants to fix every single problem in the world he need to just chill and take one step at a time otherwise it´ll be all a huge caos.
Final Thoughts
I liked this few pages so far because Bella gradated, Jacob kissed Bella, and they found out Victoria is after her... Bella is kind of in a zone because Edward told her that he wanted o marry her, but she doesn´t want because sh does care about what others will say. She has feeling for Jacob but not as strong as she has for Edward, even though he already kissed her. I hope that Bella do marry Edward because they are meant to be together. I also hope that the end turns out just right.
My reaction when I kept reading the moment where everyone wants to be with Bella.
Synopsis
Bella finally told Jacob that Edward couldn't read her thoughts and the criticisms and memories came back. Bella remembered the last time she and Jacob were together before Edward returned because he thought she was dead. After this visit, Bella went to help Angela with her announcements and they started to talk about how strange and romantic Bella's relationship was with Edward. After that Edward visited Bella because he found out she went to visit Jacob without asking for permission... Days after Edward went hunting and Bella stayed with Alice, in there Rosalie told Bella her opinion on the fact of being a vampire and told her how it wasn't her choice to become one. The day after that Jacob visited Bella at school because he couldn't see her as often. They went to La Push and he told Bella that werewolves can imprint on toddlers. Just like Embry did. He disprove the idea of Bella being "dead". Edward returned and met Bella at her room where they realized that someone was in her room, someone the Cullen couldn´t tell who was the odor from. After a day or two Edward goes hunting and Bella visits Jacob where they tell legends about werewolves and vampires. Edward realizes that the ´visitor´of Bella was the newborn of Seattle.
Some Secrets...
"I laughed too, surprised by how time had changed the memory. It used to be on of stress, of confusion. So much had changed that night.... And now I could laugh"(127)
Wow, Bella takes this so seriously. Edward left for about 4 months and her whole world just fell apart. I understand that he is the love of her life though. Everything, literally everything is running through Bella's´s head right now, she doesn´t even have time to think about herself and laugh for awhile. Maybe that´s why Bella loves to be around Jacob so much.
"A vampire had been in the house looking for me while Charlie slept. Panic overwhelmed me, closed my throat. I couldn´t answer, I just stared at him in horror."(201)
What I think might be Bella´s reaction when I read the scene where she said she was in panic.
Bella doesn´t even have time to think about herself like I said before. She is so worried about was is happening to the other people around her. Why is everyone so obsessed on finding Bella? Why does every living human being/vampire wants her dead?! What did she even do to the vampire race?
Final Thoughts
The more I read the more that I get hooked into the book. I love the way Stephenie Meyer describes the scenes of the book. I learned that caring about other people can have their pros and cons. If you acre about someone too much you don´t have time to focus about your one. But sometimes it makes you feel good when others care about you. So far the story is being kind of amusing. People making sacrifices that at the end won´t help anybody. The things that are going on constantly keeps me entertained. I hope that i´m entertained throughout the book.
In these few pages Jacob is mostly disappointed at Bella because she kind of drifted apart. Charlie from the other hand also wants Bella to spend more time with Jacob instead of the person that almost got Bella killed(Edward) because he is still digusted with him. However Bella wanted to see Jacob becuase in a few months she wouldn't see him again anymore. While Bella and Edward were debating the cons of being a "monster", Edward found out that a nexborn was loose in Seattle. After a while Edward disscused the relationship between Bella and the werewolves, eventhough Bella wanted to help Jacob pass through a difficult time. To take her mind off of it, Edward appealed her to go to Florida to visit her mom with him, he insisted and insisted untl he managed to convince her. By the time they were there Bella and her mom disscused about Edward. She tought that they were like magnets, no one could separate them no matter the situation. When they returned to Forks surprisingly jacob was at Bellas's school. Jacob told Bella the truth and she realized that Victoria was after her. Anyway, one day when Edward went hunting Bella visited Jacob eventhough she wasn't supposed to. In there while they were talking he mentions Leah Clearwater and how she and Sam fell in love but he imprinted himself in Emily. After that Bella returned from La Push but Edward dicovered her...
Some Secrets...
"Staring into his eyes always made me feel extraodinary-sort of like my bones were turning spongy. I was also a little lightheaded, but that could have been because I'd forgotten to keep breathing. Again."(17)
By this time, mother went to labor again. She one day called him into her bedroom and she apologyzed, she said that she was very sotty about the things she had done to him. Dave told his mom if it was really over, and she answered that yes. Mother let David eat all he wanted, she let him change his clothes, nut most importantly he was loved. But all lies always come to an end.... It was all a charade! Mother had pretended this whole time because a ladyfrom social services was investigating David and his situation. Somebody who really cared about him must've send the lady to do an investigation. When the lady left, it all went back to reality... Dave didn't had food, he had the bathtub and garden routine and other punishments also. He realized that the dogs had more food than himself so when he had the opportunity he sneaked the leftovers of the dogs into his mouth. It not ends on that also in school he got his beating too bullies punched him and kicked hi as well. Dave became 'rebelious' so get got to the point that he provoked either the bullies or mother so that she would end the suffering. One thing got to another and David's parents separated from each other. Dad didn't take the luxury of taking David with him, he just left him with a person who made a living hell for him until one day.....
Quotes
"No just God would leave me like this. I beleived that I was alone in my stuggle and that my battle was one of survival.'(131)
He came to belive that there was no God for him. Just to imagine that made me burst into tears, I can see that mother doesn't care about him, she doeasn't care if he was alive or dead. But at least she should've fed him or showed a litle bit of compasion. She only acted all loving when a social services lady came to investigate Dave, herself, and the house. She planned all out only becuase she knew that is she showed only a little bit of regret, Dave would fall into her plan.
"As my brothers wolfed down their hamburgers, without them knowing I clasped my hands together, bent my head down, closed my eyes and prayed with all my heart.'(153)
After returning from the department where father was free from mother, they went to a McDonalds obiously they bought the burgers and on purpose they ate them on the car so that Dave would starve even more. In my opinion that is very childish. He doesn't want to live anymore, he just wants to escape from that prison people call home. He is tired of the beating. Dave said that he hated mother for all she has done to him, he hated his supposed called 'brothers', and he hated his father becuase he helped himslf but he didn't helped the only person that saw him as a hero...
Final Thoughts
Well the book has come to an end. Mother never said sorry to Dave. NEVER!! And when she did she did it becuse it would benefit her. I'm so glad that David made his way out of that madhouse or else.. I can see that David suffered a lot not only about how he narrated the story, it was impacting just seeing the faith in someone or something can burst you into pieces. This was exactly how I didn't wanted the story to end. I wanted mother to rwalize how much damage she hs caused, and that she would've apologyzed in a touching way. I really liked this book, and I think that reading this authors experience inspired me to chamge things in my life for example PACIENCE. It changes my viewpoint into a whole new level.
Now that Father isn't helping David anymore, he no longer has any respect left for his 'savior'. Mother didn't fed David regardless if father was home. She soometimes fed him bits by bits. When mother 'accidentally' stabbed him, she would't mind at all, she was so helpless that David had to take care of his wound all ny himself. By that time father spent the less, less,less time possible becuase I assume that he now hates mother as well. Father eventuaky apologyzed to David for beong such a cold self, he promised him that they would get out of that 'madhouse' soon. However, because father spent little time at the house mother came up with different creative punishemnets to David.The gas chamber treatment, and the bathtub&garden treatment were two of the most often mother used. in The bathtub&garden treatment it looked to me that she was trying to drown him. He sent hours and hours in an ice cold bathtub while his brothers invited friends so they can see their naked brother. Surprisingly one day mother let David sleep no longer on the garage but in fathers' bed.
Quotes
"Within a few seconds my sparkler fizzled out. I turned towards the retreating sun. It had been forever since I had watched a sunset. I closed my eyes, trying to soak up as much heat as i could. For a few fleeting moments my pain, my hunger and my miserable way of life disappeared. I felt so warm, so alive."(94)
Ok, mother is kind of bipolar. One day she is very loving towards David, another day she treat him as a piece of food. What is causing these sudden changes of mood? It is just matter of time that she transforms into an unberable monster once again. This isn't bearable like she stabbed him and she didn't even took care of his wound! OMG! I can't even imagine a worse person living in earth right now. Without a doubt this has to stop right away.
"I began to give up on God. I felt that HE must have hated me. What other reason could there be for a life like me? All my efforts for mere survival seemed futil. My attempts to stay one step ahead of Mother were useles. A black shadow was always over me."(111)
At what point Dave must've been to think such thing! I can see that mother made him suffer a lot for him to think that his life didn't have a purpose anymore, he needs to keep going, he needs to have courage so that mother can see what has she done. He needs to stay storng enough.
Final Thoughts
David is going through a very difficult time, he no longer wants to keep going, he thinks his life doesn't mean anything. He needs to understand that he isn't the only one that is beng abused from their parents. He needs help! He needs support. I know God will help David it is just matter of time. However, many of my questions are being answered as I flip the pages over, but I can't wait to find out David's fate. I hope that the book is alwyas as catchy as always. David is one of the million of kids around the world who have the most important purpose in life which is find something the good in people, learn to forgive.
What I hope mother would do when she relize
what she has done to her child.
Thanks to the stravation mother made David suffer, he often stealed. Before class started he would finish his chores, run as fast as he could to the nearest store, and he would steal whatever was at hand. Sometimes, he decided that he would arrive at school extra early and he would steal from the truck that provided food for the school. He once stole a frozen hotdog, David without a doubt ate it with a sudden gulp. For a couple of days his plan worked until mother found out...... She forced him to throw up whatever was on his little stomach and she made him eat it again. All this happened when father was at home. Days passed away nad mother decided that David didn't have the priviledge to sleep uptairs anymore, she made him sleep in the garage where everythingwas dark and lonely. By this time mother didn't fed David so ge got the idea of asking a lady to make him a lunchbox. When this happened and mother found out she would make him swallow ammomia. Anyway, by this time also mother was getting kind of crazy. She threaten David with a knife because she wanted him to clean the dishes in 20min or else, mother would kill him! Mother kind of tripped and she stabbed him! She stabbed him! it was an accident though.When mother was gone David told father what had happened. David now had 30min to clean the dishes.
Quotes
"Even though Mother caught me in most of my attempts to feed myself, she could't catch me all the time. Aftermonths of being confined for hours at a time in the garage, my courage took over and I stole bits of frozen food from the garage freezer. I was fully aware that I could pay for my crime ata any timw, so I ate every morsel as if it was my last meal." (78)
I am aware that mother never feds David, but why should she had to treat him like that? She just increased a level of insaness. That isn't bearable anymore! David has to alert the police, a teacher, a friend about what is going on here. He might not be aware of this but, mother and his threatens can get to a very dangerous point in which his life could be dangeroud. He could get literaly killed.
"It was just a metter of time. I felt a curious sense of relief. I knew in my heart it was over. This whole charade of living like a slave had come to an end. Even Mother could not lie this one. I felt the accident set me free." (88)
There wasn't a slight sign of remore in mother's eyes, she just stood up and said to David that he now had 30 min to clean the dishes. HOW DARE SHE? He is a human being not a puppet. She at least could've taken him to an hospital where he would be in good hands. She stabbed him, stabbed him! That torment should've followed her until the rest of her days but she decided to just play it cool. I can't belive how heartless Mother is. Father is also very insensitive. David told him about what happened and he didn't care a bit.
Final Thoughts
I find it very interesting how David chooses to expres himself, it actually catches the reader attention even more. I have a lot of questions that are yet not answered, but I hope they soon will. Along these next few pages I have learn that hope can have two sides. It can give you something to believe in, and it can destroy you completely. In this case David thought that mother was finally giving up and this whole "charade" would come to an end. Eventually, when mother opened her mouth just to add 10 more min to his labour hours it destroyed him. He realized that it was only the beggining, it might never end, I asume he thinks that it is useless to think about his future if he has a very little chance to actually have one.... There is no more time to regret things, he has to tell someone!
"'Okay, look Edward,'I whispered. 'Here's the thing... I;ve already gone crazy once. I know what my limits are. And I can't stand it if you leave me again.'"
