A Final Decision

Sinopsis

As Bella runned for her life she saw Edward in the distance. Just before Edward stood out into the sun to the view of the people, Bella "slammed into him." Edward thought he was in hell because he smelled Bella's hair (he thought peoplewere torturing him). but after a while he finally realized that Bella was alive and he was too. Just when both of them were looking at each other, two of Aro's empoloyees came to say to Edward that the Volturi needed to speak with him. Obiously after realizing that Bella wasn't dead at all, he rejected their services. Alice stepped in I think after returning the stolen car. Later on, a vampire called Jane entered the room and said to everyone to follow her. Because of the creepy architectural style, Bella thought they (specially her) were going to die, this is why she didn't let go of Edward. When they finally entered an ancinet room, Bella got to know the 3 Volturi: Aro, Marcus and Caius. When Aro saw Bella, he wanted to know all about it so he held Edward's hand (he had a similar gift as Edward). He now knew that Bella's blood was very "appealing" to Edward. However, when Aro tried to read Bella's thoughts somehow he couldn't, after trying his hypothesis with various vampires, he got to the conclusion that she was "inmune" to all the gifts they had. He also read Alice's mind, there he saw that Bella was turning into a vampire. Because of this, they were free to go, but some day they will go check on them. Then again, when they reached Forks, everyone received them (all the Cullens). later on they reached Bella's house, Charlie wasn't happy to see Edward at all. She went to sleep because it had been a long week. When she finally woe up Edward was there, he said to her that he lied about not wanting her anymore, and she believed him so easily. Because he would not want to turn Bella, she would put her inmortality to vote. All the Cullens agreed to it, besides Rosaline and Edward. After he took her home and talked for a while, Edward proposed to Bella. She would't take it seriously though.

Quotes

"I'd never seen anthing more beautiful- even as I ran, gasping and screaming, I could appreciate that. And the last seven months meant nothing. And it did not matter if he did not want me, I would never want anything but him, no matter how long I lived"(451)

I can see now that Bella never moved on, it might have seem like it, but she still loved Edward the way she always did. One glance at him, that is all it took for Bella to realize that he truly loved Edward. It didn't matter to her if he had moved on or if he wanted to get killed because of guilt, none of it matter anymore. Every time she saw him or heard him, Bella knew why she was doing what she was doing. For example, when Bella jumped off the cliff, she didn't did it for fun, she did it because she wanted to hear that marvelous voice once again. Mybe know she realized that there was never a hole in her heart, maybe by just being with him one more time it would be healed.

"'Even if I'd had no hand in your death' he shuddered as he whispered the last word-'even if it wasn't my fault, I would have gone to Italy."(508)

I take back my words. Edward isn't a heartless person. Well he left Bella alone but it was just because he wanted her to have a normal, human, happy life. He did felt awful and devastated when he thought Bella was dead, he regreted everything he has made because he couldn't imagine a life without her. Bella on the other hand, thinks that edward went to Italy because he felt guilty. She thought that he wanted to kill himself because he couldn't protect her, but later he explained to her that he loved her no matter what. His love toward her was so intense that Edward told Bella that he couldn't pass through one wholw hour withought her. I now think Edward is the sweet, gentle vampire I used to visualize.

Final Thoughts

I really, really, really loved this book. I'm satisfied because what I predicted became reality! I am looking forward to learn more about these two characters who had given me the meaning of loving someone. What I liked about this book or Stephanie's Meyer manuscripts in general, is that she really connencts to the characters, she tries to encourage people to keep reading and to make reading an habit. I hope that all the books that are ahead of me are as thoughtful and creative as these saga. Thanks to this marvelous author I have recover the feeling of wanting to read more and more each time. I hope other kids, or teenagers find this book as intersting and reflective as I do. I'm very content that the book ended in a happy ending as I wanted it to. 

Your Time Is Running Out

Sinopsis

Once Bella and Jacob were friends again, she would spend all day in La Push. However, because Bella told Charlie about Jacob's transformation morally and phisically, he would be suspicious about him. After a while Jacob felt that it was an obligation for Bella to be with him specially when the pack was hunting Victoria. So, consequently to this he offered Bella to go cliff diving as she had seen Sam and other guys do it too. Because of Victoia like I said before, Jacob couldn't make it and Bella was again left alone. Bella went to the beach anyway. Even though, she didn't made the decision yet of jumping of the cliff, the voice warned her again as it is always used toif she did something dumb. Bella jumped anyways. She was "drowning" because there was a lot of current in the water she had left herself fall into. Bella managed to percieve something, she saw something orange in the distnace when she was under water, she didn't know what was it though. After a minute and so that Bella was underwater, Jacob and his pack heroically rescued Bella from killing herself. Finally when Jacob was taking Bella home, she heard HIM one last time, he had said "Be Happy". Anyway when they were nearly in Bella's home, Bella saw a car. It wasn't an ordinary car. I was Carlisle's. When Bella was in her way to her house because Jacob would't go with her, she realized that the orange thing she had seen in the water was Victoria! At the end it didn't turned out to be Carlisle, it was Alice. Alice wasn't with his habitual attitude, she seemed preocupied. She had told Bella that she had a vision, she saw Bella jump off the cliff and she wouldn't come back up. Jacob returned to see if Bella was okay and that is when the phone rings. According to Jacob the man on the phone was Carlisle asking for Charlie, Jacob said to him that he was on the funeral (Harry Clearwater had recently died because of a heart attack). He didn't tell him who was dead though. After alice come in with a serious and preocupied look. it turned out that Edward was the man on the phone! Now Edward think that Bella is dead. This is why he was heading to italy in order to get killed by The Volturi, but they rejected his application once he applied. Bella and Alice only had until noon to save Edward because he was going to do something reckless himself in order to provokeThe Volturi even more. When Bella and Alice finally arrived to Volterra a cop stopped them, in order to save Edward in time, Bella had to run her life.

Quotes

"Why would I fight when I was so happy where I was? Even as my lungs burned for more air and my legs cramped in the icy cold, I was content. I'd forgotten what real happiness felt like. Happiness. It made the whole dying thing pretty bearable."(361)

Why would someone be happy when they are actually dying? Do they even consider the damage that they can cause to other people? I found it interesting how Bella is happy. In my opinion she is happy because all of the suffering will be gone soon. She would not have to be devastated anymore, she would not have to be heartbroken anymore, she would be free. I think that suicide is the solution to an endless path of exasperation.

"I shook my head sadly. Love is irrational, I reminded myself. The more you loved someone, the less sense anything made."(340)

Bella can express herself like this becuase he had experince it all my herself. She loved Edward with her life but when he left everything was confusing to her, she didn;t even understand why she was sad because she had only loved him for so little time. In my opinion Bella doesn't want any other relationship specially with Jacon (which is her best friend) because she's afraid of loosing him.

Final Thoughts

I only have a few pages left to reach the end of the book. I can not wait to find out what happens to Edward. Will he die? Will Bella save him? These are the questions that are haunting me. I hope that Bella finds Edward seconds before he did his reckless thing because that will add a little bit of drama to the scene. I'm optimistic that this book will end with a happy ending. I hope that Bella and Edward get back together even though I had called heartless before.

Forgiveness Is Always a Good Thing

Sinopsis

Bella called Jacob, but it wasn't a big deal. Billy answered the phone and said to Bella that Jacob had an illness called "mono". He couldn't have visitors for a month, Bella couldn't handle much time without his company so she gave them a week. After that week passed away, Bella called Billy again, it turned out that it wasn't "mono" it was just some other illness. Aparently Jacob was better now (when Bella called), but he was in Port Angeles with some friends. Bella was cool with this because maybe he ditched her Jacob for a personal reason like resolving heir differences between him and Quil. Because she had no company, she went hiking alone looking for that mysterious meadow. After a while, she did find the meadow, at first she was relieved that she had come alone because she felt nostalgic when she saw it. But right after she arrived, a known vampire appeard from the woods. Laurent (one of James' gang). That is when she was starting to feel scared and nervous. Bella asked about Victoria and he said that she was the reason why he was in the meadow. It turned out that Victoria had found Laurent after all. She had sent him to the woods to verify that Bella was not protected by the Cullens anymore, she didn't know that they went away, yet. Laurent's purpose wasn't to kill Bella, but unfortunately he had found her when he was thirsty. He said to Bella what Victoria had planned for her death, he said that what he would do to her wouldn't hurt a thing. Laurent explained to Bella that instead of killing Edward, she would kill her because Edward killed his mate. She called this arrangement 'mate-to-mate". When Laurent was about to kill Bella, a pack of wolves attacked him and Bella had the opportunity to run for her life! When Bella was home she called Jacob for several days, but he wouldn't answer. She was starting to worry because no one answered the phone, so she decided to go to La Push. Bella got to talk to Jacob abd the first thing she noticed abot him was taht phisically he had changed. Not only in phisical features had Jacob changed but in moral features too. He was more rude now, he said to Bella he couldn't hangout with her anymore. That night Jacob went to Bellas'. At first he would apologize but because of his rudness, she wouldn't accept it. Then, Jacob explained that he had a secret that Bella already knew, she just had to remember. She did remember in a dream, now Bella knew that Jacob was a werewolf. Now that Bella knew what was going on, Jacob is starting to explain thing to her.

Quotes

"Should I go after Charlie? What would I say? And what about Jacob? Jacob was my best friend; I needed to warn him. If he really was a -I cringed and forced myself to think the word-werewolf (and I knew it was true, I could feel it), then people would be shooting at him!"(297-298)

In my opinion I think that Bella is very dependent. What I mean is that she depends a lot in people to be happy. When she was with Edward she had nothing to worry about, she was happy and protected. But once he left she was left alone, she was unhappy, depressed. The same thing happens with Jacob. When Jacob wasn't a werewolf he was very caring with Bella, and respectful. But when he turned, he depended on Sam. Sam took his decisions. This quote really reflect what  family vs friends means. For example,Bella doesn't decide either to help Jacob or try to protect his father from Jacob's specie.

"'I wouldn't have come. But Bella,' he looked at me again, 'I made you a promise. I had no idea it would be so hard to keep, but that doesn't mean I'm not going to try.'"(288)

I found it intersting how Jacob chooses to express himself. i can tell that he does likes Bella a lot becuase he is sacrificing alot in order to protect and make Bella happy. Because like I said before Bella depends a lot in people in order to be happy.

Final Thoughts

As I continue reading the more details that are revealed. In this 112 pages, I found out that Jacob was a werewolf! I assume as he said on the quote above that he would try his best to protect Bella from danger. Bella is an expert in doing thing in a reckless and stupid way so maybe she is going to need Jacob's help. I wonder if Bella is still listening HIS voice again? I will like to find out what is causing her to hear this voices.

New Friends, New Experiences

Sinopsis

"It will be as if I never existed" this is what Edwars said before leaving. This is what have been bothering Bella since then. Before HE left, he made sure to tell Bella to stay away from the reckless and stupid actions she is used to do. Because Bella loves breaking promises, she decided to do something reckless and stupid. She bought two motorcycles. She didn't know where to fix them and how to fix them  because she had rescued them from the trash. She realized that her old friend Jacob Black worked very hard in a garage, that is when she called Charlie for the address. Obiously Charlie was delighted by the news because finally Bella was goint to interact with another human being. After Bella arrived and talked to Jacob for a while, she realized or in other words rememberd that she does like Jacob. Fortunately Jacob agreed to help Bella, she felt guilty because she was asking too much so both of them made a deal. Jacob will owe one of the motorcycles when they were finished, and he would teach Bella how to ride them. Coming over to Jacob's house became an habit after a while because he made her feel much better about her heartbreaking situation. In school she did feel strange though, noboody of the Cullens were there, everysingle one of them had had disappeard from her life in one second. This is why Bella felt "healthier" when Jacob was around. After spending a lot of time together, Jacob called Bella. He had finally finished the bikes! After Bella and Jacob arrived to a place in which she would learn how to ride, she saw a man throw himself off the cliff. Bella freaked out right there on the spot. Jacob then explained to her that they do that for fun, not to kill themselves. Anyway, when Bella managed to ride the bike withought falling apart, she heard HIM again. Bella kpt on going until her brakes failed and she fell over. Later, she went to the hospital and got 7 stiches on the head. After a while Bella went to the movies with Mike,  Jacob and other couple of friends. Non of them showed up so they ended only the 3 of them. Later on, Mike had to run to the bathroom because the movie made him sick. After Jacob went to check on him, he and Bella talked about their relationship. Bella only wanted him as a friend, Jacob was cool with that. After they took Mike home, Jacob started to feel sick too. A long time passed until Bella called Jacob.

Quotes

"It wasn't as hard as I would have thought to keep focused on the present. The forest looked a lot like any other part of the peninsula, and Jacob set a vastly different mood."(198)

After a good period of time, Bella is realizing that it isn't worth it to spend the rest of her life regretting what had happened. Now she is more mature on the situation, she is focused on just moving ahead in life no matter how much she had suffered for a person. It can be said that Bella is starting to overcome the place in which the love of her life breaked her heart. It can also be said that Jacob is helping Bella pass through this situation

"One thing I truly knew- knew in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest- was how love gave someone the power to brake you."(219)

Because Bella now has the experience in being split in two halves, she doesn't want any of it anymore. I think that she is trying to say that once you know the person you are dating is the one, you are letting him have the power of destroying you completely. Bella knows she likes Jacob, but she isn't ready for another relationship after something catastrophic had happened to her.

Final Thoughts

As I get deeper into the book each chapter gets better every time. Bella is starting to have this visions of Edward in her mind every time she does something wrong. I hope that Edward takes responsability of his actions and come back for Bella. Hopefully nothing bad will happen before Edward comes to take Bella with him. If Edward does not come, I think that Bella is going to get over him, and finally be with someone that truly loves her. In the beggining Edward was the most romantic and caring person I've ever magined, but once he left it turned him into a rude and heartless person. maybe jacob will take advantage and try to gain Bella's heart. But the prediction that I hope it turnes into reality is the one that Edward regrets what he had done, and turn into reality Bella's dream (becoming a vampire).

A New Beggining

 Synopsis 

Bella is having a dream. She imagined herself as an old woman, she saw herself just as a grandmother. Edward started to aproach, that is when she realized that the old woman that was standing beside him was herself. A loud Happy Birthday! waked Bella up. She saw her father with a couple of presents even though she didn't want any. However, she did like the camera and the "scrapbook" in which she had to paste photos of people she loved. Just after Bella arrived to school, Edward did to. Pleasing her with a "Happy Birthday" and a kiss. When they were in class Edward
told Bella that humans had so many options in terms of suicide but his specie (vampires) didn't have many. He told her that when she was nearly killed by James, he went to provoke The Volturi (which is the most similar thing to a royal family but in in this case of vampires) because he couldn't live without her. After class Edawrd took Bella to his house because Alice had planned a special birthday party for her. First, she received a stereo for the truck Charlie had bought her when she arrived from Phoenix. However, when she was opening Edward's present she had a paper cut. Immediately by the smell of blood, Japer threw himself towards Bella but Edward threw her in the air and stopped Jasper just on time. Everyone but Carlisle were disorientated and kind of thirsty. Luckily for Bella, Carlisle already had experience smelling fresh blood so he healed Bella. While healing her, Carlisle told Bella the story of how he turned Edward into a vampire. It was a tragic story becuase Edward was seriously ill and his mother too, it was such an powerful illness that his mother died just after she told Carlisle to save Edward. Bella ended understanding how Edward felt about his soul. Right after Carlisle was finished curing Bella, Edward took her home. When they were in the room of Bella, he gave her his present. His present was something simple but with a huge meaning, he gave her a CD with her lullaby and other compositions. The next day, Edward told her that all of his family went away for a while. He was strange for a couple of days until he took Bella to a walk and "braked up with her". He said he had to go and that he didn't wanted her to come, that devastated Bella. She passed the following 4 months not caring about a thing, until one day Charlie was tired of Bella's attitude. He wanted to send Bella back home. That's when Bella and Jessica went to Port Angeles just to get away from all the problems, but just when they were heading to a McDonalds Bella saw some guys she recognized. As she reached them, she heard HIS voice.

Quotes

"I promise that this wil be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed"(71)

 This quote really made me think who Edward is really. At first he was very caring, very gentle at speaking and treating people. And suddenly he makes a drastic turn and become a total rude person. What or who made him change his mind? Earlier in the book he protected and loved Bella with his heart and soul, and from one day to another he broke up with her. What's wrong with him? He might be inmortal and heartless, but Bella is human and she does suffer all the pain she is having now. 

"TIME PASSES. EVEN WHEN IT SEEMS IMPOSSIBLE. EVEN when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise. It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does. Even for me."(93)

I can't believe how heartless Edward is right now. I mean he just left, leaving Bella all alone.......heartbreaked. Like I said before she didn't get over it soon, she took her time processing the new information that has had given to her. 4 months, 4 months is what it took Bella to recognize that time goes on even if we don't want it to. We  can't erase a heartbreaking memory, we can't back time. That is why we should hold on to the marvelous moments we have left to be happy.

Final Thoughts

I am really enjoying this book. It has lots and lots of moments in which I can identify myself like when someone leaves you. Not necesarily a boy but maybe a grandfather you really loved. I find it interesting how the author choses to express herself, instead of narrating the story herself, she uses Bella as the narrator. Also she uses a lot of dialogue between characters in which more details are revealed and the story is better to comprehend. Anyway, as the book continues its course I am looking forward to see what will happen to Bella because she was absolutely devastated by what Edward had said. I hope she holds on to a strong attitude toward this problem. I also hope that Edward think through what he has done.